If you are not familiar with the terms “The Plan” or what I refer to as “the organization”, I refer you to this article link:
I reflect back to the day many years ago when I sat on my bedroom floor, Bible in my lap and me at the same time being harassed by demons as I tried to read from God's word.
[I was in my early teens.]
I had been taught that I had to over come the demons myself, of my own power in order to make them subject to me. This was all part of the climbing the ladder of spiritual success Godward. (Toward God).
Many times I tried and failed, being over come by those opposing forces.
That particular day I gave up. I said to God, "If this is the way to you, I can't do it!"